honest blogging...

I've been reading lots of blogs lately and I've been noticing a few things...

There are people who blog about ideas. And there are people who blog about their emotions. There are people who blog about their day, and some like to mix it up with anecdotes etc. Some people blog about all of the above.

But I think all blogs can be divided in two categories. Honest and dishonest. I know that sounds very black and white. But it's true.

Unfortunately I think my blogging efforts so far fall into the dishonest category. That's not to say that I've been actively dishonest. But I haven't been writing about everything that's been going on, what I've been thinking, feeling and so forth.

What I'm getting at is that I've been sensoring myself. I haven't beens saying thing's I'd because I'm worried about god knows what.

So let's throw caution to the wind...

Ingham is really really boring man. I'm trying super hard to make the best of being here - and I am. The job really is good and I'm learning lots. It was a good decision to come.

But sometimes, not all the time, it sucks.

On a Friday night when I have nothing to do (like tonight) it sucks. It also sucks when I need a hug, or a want to see a band, or I want to buy a good book, or I want to see a decent movie.

But most of all it sucks because of all the people am missing. I miss Luke. Enormously. I miss the snuggles, fun times and being close to my best friend.

I also miss my family. And my friends. I miss coffee with my mum on Sunday afternoon in the kitchen. I miss beers and adventures with friends. It stinks.

I also feel like I'm missing out on things sometimes. Could I have aimed higher? Had a bigger, more daring adventure than this? Why didn't I go for a job in a bigger city? In a different country? bah.

Anyway. So tonight at least I've been honest. I'm lonely and sad. Boohoo.

I'm going to go watch the rest of Lost In Translation now and make myself even sadder.

cya.

Tegz